life indeed has been real kind and nice to me
had a blast with life now and
everyday(except tues & fri) there'll be
those laughing and being mad days


but somehow somewhere,
wat e ustazah had said to me, start to lurk in my mind
"when you are feeling happy, sorrow will be
injected in ur life at the same time too" and vice versa

and true enuf, there is something deep in e heart
tat no one noes, how evil and selfish i can be
well, until now la that is


wat makes a family to me
is juz:Mommy, Daddy, Me and my 2 bros
anyone outside e circle, i'd considered as an outsider
right now
poor grandma
she lost her house (with no thanks to some "smarty pants")


mommy say to let her stay in the house.
my 1st reaction was i refused to let her stay
everyone noe i was e evil party


but in e end, she did stay a few nites and all
but no matter how hard i try, i am just unable to let her in
up till now, i can never find the answer why

i try telling myself, how wud i feel if i were in her shoe?
how wud i feel if i were to be treated like tat in e future by
my own grandchildren?
how wud i react if my children were to treat that to mommy?

i try telling myself tat hoping to make my heart lunglai in a way
but i just cannot
mommy says i am selfish and i told her i noe
but my heart juz
unable to do wat is e right thing to do!


til today, that guilt is always there, untouchable
sometimes i just wonder how can u guys out there able to let
grams stay and be part of ur life
wen i find it so hard to do so


i can accept it if people come to my house for a visit
but if it is for a stay, i juz cannot
tried asking my 2 bros
they too felt the same way


i tink living in e kampong is much better..
maybe i wont even have e word "selfish" in my life too
seeing they are always together and e bond between
relatives are there, it made me wonder
how come i can never hav tat in this family tree of mine?
10/31/2006 07:27:00 PM





10/30/2006 09:40:00 PM



10/28/2006 11:03:00 AM


Salam Aidilfitri Minal Aidil Walfaizin!
to all Muslims around e world
10/24/2006 02:08:00 PM


yay yay! tomorow raya!!!!!!!!!
got some unshameful people who criticise Islam
but got e cheek to ask raya stuffs from us -_-

tat aside, tomorow gona be a wonderful day!
ouh ouh! i juz discovered something
Dee n Me daddy are frens la!!! keren banget!

but also quite sad :(
my sinetron will air e last episode tonite
but in high spirits, it better end now
than it get to my nerves
wif a nonsensical ending kan!

so i oso wana sincerely ask forgiveness to these people

• taufik batisah for calling u a mamak in SI1
• jaja err thou i strongly say i am always rite!
• salbiah for bugging u wif technology stuffs
• Lady G for untreating u well throughout dis 2 yrs
• Dee for kacau kau ngan "developed cheeks"
• mat toleh toleh for hating u
• yuri for bugging u at e last minutes for exams purposes
• to whom it may concern tat i had been bad too

and to all those i ever bugged or gossip about, i wana say i am sorry and forgive this mere mortal of God.

n ouh ouh! to my new found boyfren! thou we juz "budding", for traditional sake, let's forgive each other n minutes later, let's beat each other up again k!

-tat is all-

10/23/2006 05:10:00 PM


this week had been a nice sailing week for me...
but b4 tat, i wana say:
I SAW MAT TOLEH TOLEH!!!!!!!!
it's e hair tat makes him recognisable!
thou i prefer e blond so i can distunguish better!
dis time i'm smart, i never gasp
yay! he never change skool! dun ask me y i so enthu!!!
n ouh ouh! dia sembahyang jumaat *shrieks*
i tot guys like tat wont even take a step in masjid!
tsk tsk tsk....i change my perspective
Toleh toleh!

heeeeeee :) :) :) :)

besides tat, skool turn out to be ok! monday was
kinda rough
Tuesday was FUN! i am proud of me coz i enjoy for full 4h!
Wednesday was nice! Thursday was nice
Friday was super duper nice!

i'm liking dis sem already! Daging & me bakal buat rumah bersama
sweet kan! buat rumah together gether!
and Dee's gona help too! she gona be e contractor where we
order her around while Daging & Me gona hav quality time!
hahahaha!!!!
(i can tell Dee's rolling her eyes)

days are getting better..if u hav one bad day, cheer up!
tomorrow will be better..look at e small little things tat happened
these things tend to cheer us up
dun expect..juz enjoy e day as bright as possible :)
10/20/2006 06:31:00 PM



10/17/2006 08:45:00 PM


1st day of skool & life kinda a big fat mess..
e thought of making new friends all over again is a dread.
it is nice to a point but den u dun hav a strong core of frens
they'd drift away for e lack of conversation....

not talking about tat extra module but talking as a whole...

Dee & Me were like outcasts.. we are e "added" students in tat class
pathetic enough, we dun have a close bond wif anyone so we end up...
oh god! dis is karma la!!!!!!!!
we end up being like Lady G aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!!! karma!

from now on, i promise myself i will be good to everyone, ALL!!!
oh god, this is how Lady G muz hav felt :(
unbelonging & i hate e feeling..Get better? i hope wif all my might

&

dis lecturer who we unfortunately get stuck wif e whole day,
kept on bombarding us wif e upcoming
project & also kip on reminding to build a model house.
and he repeats every word he had say in e tutorial to e lecture
TAT ONE FREAKING MODULE! starting to unfancy it already
IT IS JUST 1ST DAY OF SKOOL! TAKE A CHILL PILL!

eeeeeeee.....now entry like negative..
wana watch sinetrons soon..tat black box never fail to enlightened
myself after a _______(cant tink wat word to describe) day.....
look forward to seeing u :)
10/16/2006 05:31:00 PM


i took me a bad incident to realise how great is God's creation -_-
was chewing absently while tinking of today's sinetron
& wondering who has yakin by radja wen OUC OUC OUC!!!!!
i bit my own cheek!! HARD!
tat was wen it hit me! subhanallah!
God is great!
u noe our teeth n our inner cheek are created so close to each other
n our teeth are powerful wen they come to biting.

wat awed me was tat wif e cheek n teeth too close together, add tat to food, how come e chances of us biting e cheek is so rare?
n do we realise, our mouth muscle play a part in it. they noe how
much to stretch so u wont hurt ur cheek well tat often.
n do u noe, in between e 2 sets of of teeth, our cheek slightly curves inwards??

on e other hand, there's an old saying if unmistaken, if u bit ur
tongue,ur wish wud come true or sumting like tat
SO! if i bit my cheek, wud it reaaly come true?? hmmmmmmm
i got a big fat list tat i wish to happen soooooon!!!!

oh yah, today is my 1st day of skool! i hope mommy sends me & fetch me
haha!
10/16/2006 06:11:00 AM



10/12/2006 08:02:00 AM


e skool reopen at e wrong time! deeparaya's in e house! in e mood for e hols wen BAM!!!!!!! we muz go skool -_-

those nvr celebrate wud oso wan e squeezy 2 days of hols n non-stop tv programmes riiiiiiiite?!!!!

so,if i were e principal, dis wud be e holiday plan:
initial reopening:16 Oct BUT! since deepavali falls on e same wk, we let e Indians hav tat 1 wk. so make it a holiday!

e nxt wk:23 Oct, hari raya eve, again, ppl wudnt wana go skool! it's monday blue oso! so let's declare tat wk a holiday!

e nxt nxt wk:30 Oct, it's e end of e month!

so might as well, push e date to 1st November!!! rite rite?!

10/10/2006 12:00:00 PM

muahahaha!!! took (not stole) dis frm some1's frenster...

also.........
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i got a goooooooooooooooood news!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
well applicable to me oni ah...Mr Daging!!!!!!!!!!
it's a good thing we change class! Dee, dun wori, it's gona be ok....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
10/08/2006 03:52:00 PM



10/06/2006 12:18:00 PM


suddenly i got an inspiration wat to blog about. After reading Jaja's blog, i start to tink, ok wat's so unique bout spore? been so long since i tink dis hard! n a 1st time tat i realise tat is our slogan :X

ok so wat is unique bout singapore? well we are famous for our concrete jungle but besides tat, wat is unique, we are a small island but somehow thanks to e great tinkers, we are wat we are now...

since i'm a sinetron freak, i watch sinetron n notice e surrounding of their areas..if u r poor, ur surrounding is very poor, where if u were to drink direct from e tap, uh all e very best to u..
if u r rich, u r living in a fortress where ur gate is so tall n high! n not enough with tat, u have a security room near e gate n security alarms..somehow an impression of being unsafe in ur own house...
besides tat, in other countries, gals cant go out alone. at nite is worst la!

in singapore, u open ur tap, clean water is there to greet u.
u arent afraid to go out at nite
e food quality, even a choc bar is good(trust me)

e point is tat singaporeans are safe n well protected, clean n hav a good standard of living. big countries, they arent safe, cases of murder is always everyday scary but e truth..

so e summary is we are small but we are living peacefully n e govt even help us to safe for our retirement....i wudnt wana trade for anything....

ok i'm late toodles!

so jaja! i list down wat is unique bout us! not bad eh?
10/05/2006 03:49:00 PM



10/04/2006 11:54:00 AM


yesterday was Tantes nite! e intention was to celebrate Tante Sal's bdae but at e same time Tante Fis was promoting her chocs n cookies..den it was gossips n more gossips! latest story: sum1's getting more n more feminine now! gila!!!

den it was a session where we curhats bout our hubbies to be (well, minus me since Ah Leong n me baik baik aja!) Tante Jaja cant stop smiling, Jj dun u get lip cramps? :)

eh! we really are sounding like Tantes la! wat lacks was a session where we colour our nails n go for salon! :X
10/02/2006 12:41:00 PM