hot mama say i shouldnt stuck myself at an indecisive point
bestie say i oughta spread my wings(she's very metaphoric nowadays)


i am trying!


wen someone asked to 'hang around' ( i swear i had visions of monkeys swinging around trees wen tat phrase was spelt out)
ok back to wat was i saying..
so wen sum1 ask to hang around,
if i were to follow my tiny heart voice,
no matter how indecisive i am always,
tiny heart voice is always there telling me what to do
which seemed to be the correct thing to do..
only i never follow

i dowana hang around coz i foolishly thought i might hurt someone
but dee2 say
"u mustnt let urself get stuck in an indecisive spot for who noes tat person might just be doing the same thing behind ur back"
(aiyo..please dont)


i really dowana go...
i got that urge again
to run away and hide with tv

i dowana go but i oso dowana be stuck
and a quote frm bestie "a boring nunu"
i dowan that!
i dono wat to do

watever, just go with the flow!
do my 6000 words report and slideshows
and we see how to get myself occupied..
boohoo!
7/30/2007 10:50:00 PM


at the stroke of midnight,
all the sourness and ugliness i felt were wiped away
by an unconcious smile creeping onto my face
emotional roller coaster wor!


i feel like a cinderella only my slippers are colourful
:)
toodles...
7/29/2007 09:58:00 PM


...so i just hang around & find something to do
to get my mind off missing u
n i know in my heart, u can say tat u dont love me too
please say u do..


been sitting here cant get u out my mind
i try my best to be a man & be strong
i told myself & say wishing i could touch your face
but the truth remains u're gone...


it hurts..a lot...
he lives up to his name...
heartbreaker-which he assured me he wont be...
a naive fool i am...


i am sorry temen temen...
i turned u guys offer to go home together
i was and am running away..
away from the pain...

i just dont want to meet anyone
let me heal like a deep wound
all by myself...


please do not use the many-fishes-in-the-sea line

to all my ladies,
if you are in a rough phase with the man u love so deeply,
please find ways to solve the matter
for when it is gone,
it hurts..
7/27/2007 10:32:00 PM


my my my
grad picture was super duper fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i was pretty u see..hehehehehe
n so was every one else la!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
but fret not!
we will meet wen skool open!

my first cpf cut! weeeeee
7/26/2007 10:27:00 PM


for the first time in my life,
i fall for someone who is not tall, tanned and handsome-u get the gist


for the first time in my life,
i like someone not because i had to do it to get someone else's attention


for the first time in my life,
being near the tinge of fragrance is so calming


for the first time in my life,
i like someone who is older than me.no more phedophile haha!

for the first time in my life,
it feels so thrilling to be trespasses :)


for the first time in my life,
it all feel like a dream



i just hope i wen i fall, it wont be a first time heart break :S
if only he knew......


(this is so unlike me!)
7/22/2007 11:58:00 AM


this song....

oh! let it just play.....

"karma set me free, forever urs i'll be"

ok..but not the forever part...lalalala!
7/19/2007 09:37:00 PM


if only life is like the tv drama that i routinely watch at night
where the problems seem so difficult
but they manage to get over it after one or two episodes.


i wana hide
with my tv n all that it attached to it
hide in a cozy corner again
and never get out of my comfort zone
like i once did.


tata...time for my tv!
7/18/2007 11:06:00 PM


on a lighter note,
no words cud explain it......


bestie say i am a goner


wen i fall, i hope it wont be too pain...


yada yada yada
7/17/2007 10:11:00 PM


recently,
i encountered a few disgusting n disturbing scenes

everywhere i went,
i was a witnessed to couples licking each other!!!!!!!!!!
n not just lick the mouth, LICKING THE WHOLE FACE!!!!!!!
WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my concentration for transformer was disturb by the rude couple who were busy licking each other's face..
why waste money wen all u do is to lick each other???!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i was in the mrt wen a secondary skool 'sweethearts' start to lick each other
this scene was very disturbing!!!!
the gal is so act-cute
the guy was in his first year wearing long pants-u can even see moustache JUST starting to grow on his face!!!
how to protect that weakling girl!!!!


waaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!
top with that, i recently was given a free lesson on
"how to kiss ur boyfriend in the mrt"


wat make me sound like ah soh
is coz it is very private-meant to share btwn u n ur other half

all in all,
if u wana hav ur licking session, do it at places where it is discreet
(ah pek taught me tat word)

period.
7/17/2007 09:32:00 PM


hello....
i duno wat to type
but i feel i hefta type
yada yada yada

there are alot of different types of people
namely
miss i-know-it-all
mr i-am-such-a-desperate-pretentiously-thinks-i'm-naive boy


anyway, today, first time in my life,
i wear a dress
dabb some fragrance
& smooth my hair
a routine which i never bother to do at all before....

tat is all

yada yada yada
7/16/2007 11:00:00 PM


Is it wrong?
If I were to turn down a meet up when your friend wants for a meet up on the very same day? Even when they had asked for many days and u often turned them down?


Is it wrong?
If I told to meet on the next day instead?


unfortunately, for what i'd done,
prolly it'll take days b4 all is normal again :(


without seeing the name on the screen, make work all so mundane
there wasnt a jolt to make my day :(


I thought what I did was right..boooooooo!!!!! (he too started to use this :))

too intense in the game :S

anw, my team manager farted inside the smal cubicle right beside me!!!!!!!
haaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!! disgusting!
7/13/2007 04:49:00 PM


i have fun
just wen i say i'd do the contrary to bestie
i suck -__-
7/11/2007 10:50:00 PM


I’ve landed myself in a world I thought I knew what I was doing…
to the contrary, boi was I so so wrong.
Rite now, it gets so complicated-for my part-
that I cannot distinguish which is fiction nor which is fact.
Wat am I to do, I really duno


It seem that there is a replica to the history…
He came back, only, this time,
It wasn’t him..
It’s someone else who evolves to be him..


Replica 1
Lets go out!
On the day itself, “uh..I’m very sleepy” avoiding the qn
the same ol excuse
A clear cut for even someone who’s too blur like me to get it as
“I DOWANA GO OUT WITH U”

Replica 2
Mr History was keen to do other things than a usual outing
Mr Now is so keen to ask to go to his refuge- which is considered to be private and intimate for everyone who has one


All I need for Replica 3 is for him to say
U are too good for me


Anw, I get sticky wen ppl ask me “am I a good girl or a bad girl”
I hate that question
I reformed to be good
Too good till sometimes, it doesn’t bring any benefit to myself.
Kawan, apa harus aku lakukan?
A 1st, I am the one who cannot think rationally

So yah…I wrote a whole page long..
Why aren’t report as easy as these?!
I could just write non stop!
7/10/2007 09:39:00 PM


ouh! i think now is e durian season...
get ur pegs out n dig in!
hahahhaa


report hefta do soon....
yuck...
i think i do it very soon
but not too soon...
i duno how soon...
but soon is a good word
it is indefinite but it sounds as if u were to do it at any near time...


momy hates it wen i use e word soon :P
like 'wen are u gona clean up ur room?'
me: soon
hahaha
7/09/2007 10:43:00 PM

finally i watched this! I LOVE!!!!!!
go catch it!
the sound effects were best!
the machines were aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love pontiac and camaro!
2 gorgeous cars!
but i prefer the bad robots thou!
Megatron!!!!


ouh! Copa cup is on rite now!
but some matches starts at 730am!
i oni get to catch a glimpse of some :(


NAPFA is soon...
i dun have shoes to start with...
actually we can run with our slippers leh
i tried b4
economical n trendy! hahahahah!
7/07/2007 11:27:00 PM


OMG!!!! people at kantor are such fake!
God! they might be laughing and call u small girl in chinese
wen they turned their heads, they starts to bitch about u
i noe i had been advised times n times again


just that i was surprised la...
they bitched about sumone i dun fancy either rite in front of me
luckily wen in times like these, my kepo-ness is silent
and i just absorbed like a sponge

which make me think...
they might bitched about her in front of me
wat about wen they talk about me?
i will never noe
:X


i thank Allah for keping me quiet-real quiet wen i go lunch with them
all i do wen lunch is to
1.order food
2.eat the food with full concentration
3.wen done, pretend as if u never hear wat they are conversing with one another
4.concentrate at the stallholder on how he make his drinks or spaced out
5.silly-ly smilling to urself (lately)


they never talk to me nor do i talk to them
n i thought i was having social problems with people compare to that person
that person is extremely friendly and sociable wen with them
i think i will stick to the ol me n just do the above 5...
7/05/2007 11:53:00 PM


rite now,
wenever i hefta laugh in the office,
i hefta bit my lips from making them turn into a curl
it's so hard not to smile n glee to urself...


i did burst into a laughter once for a funny msg
the lady was shocked..and she looked at me


aniways, is it wrong to have MSN while working?
u chat a while..in btwn work...
is it wrong?
it's so nice to have sumone to entertain u n talk to u!
7/04/2007 11:00:00 PM

You Are Trinity

"Touch me and that hand will never touch anything again."

7/03/2007 10:51:00 PM


i'm back to hq....seriously wen i am there, there'd be a voice at the back of my mind telling myself to half believe watever they say...
anyway, my leader bluff me..i like Northvale!


anyhooo.... :D
who would have known after 2 days of stiffled intros
might turned out to be a 'good start?'

who would have known both gal n guy who are serving their karma could click
and after some lame but very entertaining chats turns out
to be 'sayang' and 'darling'?
ah....


wat more to say? e tv is disturning my thoughts
7/02/2007 10:54:00 PM